Apparently I haven’t posted in a little over 3 weeks. oops. Here’s what’s been happening
6 March: Went to my old dance studio to see the new location, Panera dinner
7: Dance
8: Mr. Golden Bear and Chipotle for dinner
9: Dance, homework, movie night at Aleah’s
10: JMOMS!
11: School
12: School
13: School
14: Dance
15: Half-day, went to lunch, dance, Key Club dinner
16: Dance, eyebrow appointment
17: Homework
18: Dance (Act 1 tech from 2:45-7)
19: Dance (Act 2 tech from 2:45-8)
20: Dance (dress rehearsal from 3-9:30)
21: Dance Evo previews during school, opening night
22: Dance Evo
23: Dance Evo & Denny’s
24: Maddie’s birthday dinner
25: Sleep, jacuzzi & s’mores at Kenzie’s
26: Homework, went to dance with Kylie
27: SeaWorld
WELL it’s been about 8 days since I last posted but I’ve been crazy busy so sorry bout it.
Here’s what I’ve been doing:
25 February: Doctor Who Club and got to dance in the new Theater for the first time!
26: Went to Costco and ordered perscription sunglasses
27: No homework so I probably slept
28: Dance
1 March: In-Class dress rehearsal for Gala, Taco Bell dinner, watched Les Mis online
2: Dance, volunteered at Empty Bowls, Fresh & Easy, drove home, Maddie came to sleep over
3: Maddie left around 3, did homework, Fatburger for dinner and saw Skyfall with my daddy
4: Gala all day at school. Horribleness. Came home and cried/slept until 5
5: School, derped around on the internet for 2.5 hours whilst complaining about the amount of homework I have, finally relented and started calc.
idk man i’m just really sad that les mis didn’t win more oscars so i’m listening to the soundtrack.
i also didn’t finish my english homework.
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Today just really sucked. Not really for any reason in particular, but it just sucked. There was a fire drill during dance, I still haven’t memorized my dialogue for Spanish, ap chem is kicking my ass, history was fine, i don’t understand anything in calc, and english was just boring.
but ugh. AP Chem will probably kill me by the end of the year. It’s only so stressful because of the tests: there isn’t any homework, we don’t do labs that often, and there isn’t much in-class work, so most of our grade comes from tests. And I’ve been doing pretty well this semester, but I don’t understand this chapter. I missed one day and I know how to do the stuff that I missed, but I don’t understand why I’m doing it, which just frustrates me. So today I sat there in class, trying to make sense of the study guide and I just couldn’t. I ended up spending all of break, advisement, and lunch working with Turay on trying to understand it.
And my friends aren’t getting any better. I don’t know if I’m closing myself off or if we’ve just grown apart, because when we’re together I have zero interest in their conversations and I just feel irrelevant. And I’m goddamn sick of feeling irrelevant in everybody’s lives lately. Today one of my friends asked me if I was okay like 4 times (I guess I was spacing out??) and I had to give the standard “Yeah, just tired” excuse, but I wish that I could just say “You know what, no. I’m not okay. I hate most of my friends and I’m sick of being irrelevant and I’m tired of being lauded as so smart when I don’t understand anything in 1/3 of my classes. I’m also done with my family and I just want to get the hell out of here because it’s ripping me to shreds.”
Too bad I’m not that outspoken.
Today will be a rant, my apologies.
Everyone knows that eating healthy foods and exercising is good for your body, I think we can all agree on that.
BUT…
Nowhere in the Guide to Healthy Lifestyles (that’s not actually a thing I’m just being sarcastic) or on any exercise app ever does it say that you need to brag about how often you exercise or how healthy your lunch is or what new detox you’re starting.
NOBODY CARES AND IT MAKES EVERYONE FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE.
I have 3 or 4 friends who are like this. It’s at the point where I don’t even like being around them anymore because literally all they talk about is “ugh I feel so fat, I forgot to run/only ran 5 miles yesterday” or “I have this spinach salad for lunch and I made this vinaigrette that only has 30 calories and 1 gram of fat” or “My mom and I are starting this detox/shake/protein/etc. diet where you only eat this and that and nothing else and it’s supposed to be really good for your body and just clean out your system and everything and omg healthy”. And the thing is, myself and at least 2 other people feel uncomfortable around them. There’s a reason I eat my lunch in 5th period, and it’s not because I’m hungry that early. There’s a reason I don’t like going out to dinner with them.
Like, good for you that you exercise all the time ‘n’ shit, but don’t rub it in people’s faces, and definitely DON’T do it to the point where people aren’t comfortable being around you.
So this whole week, I’m (attempting to) make my family dinner every night, because why not?
Last night I made pesto-stuffed chicken (which turned out better than the first time I made it!), tonight I made French Dip sandwiches, tomorrow I’m making Cinnamon Roll Pancakes, and I don’t know what to make on Thursday or Friday, soooo I’ll take suggestions, if any of you have any!
Wife me up, yo.
This is very cheesy and friendship-y, fair warning.
So today Corinne called me and was like “Are you home? Open your door.” So I did and she walked in my house and was just like “I was coming home from dropping people off and I don’t want to start my math homework and I thought we were at that point in our relationship where we could just walk into each other’s houses… but you lock your door.”
And I was just like
I love having a friend that I’m so comfortable around. We don’t even have to be doing anything, we just enjoy each other’s coompany. I stood there making dinner and she just helped me pound out chicken.
I just really love our friendship.
So today I went to my grandma’s house to celebrate my aunt’s birthday. Family gatherings are always quite eventful as my grandma is extremely conservative and prissy and high-maintenance. At lunch my aunt and I started talking about college and where I want to go. That was all fine and nobody yelled during that topic, so yay. However, we somehow got on the subject of piercings/tattoos and everyone just stared at Kylie and me because we want tattoos and nobody but our dad approves. We asked if we could not have that conversation and our dad just said “you know, once you’re 18 you can do whatever you want, no big deal” (which is fine, whatever) but then our grandma added “Yeah and living on your own and not coming here”. (um ouch thanks for that). Obviously, those of you who know me know that I’m NOT a conservative person and I have a pretty independent personality (most of the time) so my grandma and I don’t really get along, especially whenever the tattoo/piercing subject comes up. She also constantly snaps at me whenever I joke around with my mom (like holding things out of her reach, saying “no” and then doing whatever she asked me to do, etc.). I don’t know, we just kind of have a strained relationship.
Also she got a wig. Nobody could look at her with a straight face, it was so damn hilarious.
On a brighter note, she lives across from a mall and my sister and I went to H&M and Urban Outfitters and I got these siiiick acid wash jeans from H&M and this orange tie-dye muscle tee with mirrored leopards on it. (I’m growing an unhealthy addiction to muscle tees help)